dear Farihin,

why oh, why must you be in every thought that i thought off. this is ridiculous. You dont even notice me, and yet, here i am, waiting for some shit miracle to happen. I dont know what specifically, hopefuly something great and nice. i dont ask for much. No, i dont want to have sex with you, gawd, no. haha, that was funny, that thought. see, it's you, in it.

so like, i think you're outside at this gawd damd hour fishing for, again, gawd knows what. you're crazy, you know. and that's what i like about you. You're so abslutely happy all the time. I know there's bound to be issues, but hey, you make the most out of a situation right? sometimes, when i look at you long and hard and deep enough, i can see sorrows within. I dont the whole story to it, but maybe you might need someone to tell all those shit to. Ther's gotta be something that makes your eyes shine quite like the way they used to. i've seen your eyes light up, and i like the way you glance at me with them. Makes me feel nice. It's good to feel nice.

so while you're out there fishing, i'm here in my room still unable to fall asleep, coz ELAHA is being a pain by being the caffine that i dont need right now.

what i need is, YOU. yes you, Farihin. No not your penis. Gawd, stop it this instance.

hey, darling, say hi yeah.

wait, you'll be going away next semester. boohoo..

i'll miss you, darling, and at least show some interest for those who you are going to care for okay.

will miss you terribly when you're gone. hope you'll feel the same, dear.

nights, and bring home some fish